YCriosphinx

新春

2012-01-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

距離上一次的更新已有隔一年了（翻白眼）

我沒像別人的部落格那樣分享自己的年終總結，新一年的願望等等，也許是我一直以來都沒那樣做的習慣，要跟上這股風還不是很適合。我覺得達成自己整年裡該做的東西就好了。

新的一年還是老樣子，感覺自己又長大一點，然後身邊又出現新臉孔，譬如在學院然後還得假裝自己很帥很拉風的樣子再一臉學長樣地瞟向剛新進學院的雛鳥們... 如果你們現在讀着這段話別給我裝B啦，我懂你們也那樣。 (再翻白眼）

過了年莫過于期待農曆新年，我自己是很喜歡熱鬧的人，看著街上開始堆起年貨烤起肉乾掛起紅燈籠我會異常興奮，又過節了唷。

只是今年的新年我多了好多感觸，親戚還是老樣子追問你還在讀書嗎之類的問題，每一年來都問同樣的問題煩不煩啊，我修繪測的都跟修醫生的同長了，這真是折磨啊。
女朋友呢，怎麼還沒交女朋友啊，還有雞婆的會瞟刮你一眼然後爆出一句該不會你搞同志啊你之類的腦殘問題。

只是今年有點不一樣了，21歲了，居然有親戚要給我介紹他小我一歲的女兒，我真的是尷尬得不知道如何反應啊，然後只得瞄像我媽讓她打圓場，然後我趕緊附和的說自己沒能力啦等等地然自己都覺得汗顏的話。這樣的情況發生了幾次只是我身邊求救的人物換了幾次，我媽，我姐，我婆...直到我笑吟吟地把他們送離我家大門這事才擺手。

這一年我感到特別地羨慕，嫉妒身邊的人，都能把喜歡的人帶回家，然後可以與他們分享自己與家人的喜悅及歡樂。好不羨慕，親愛的我好想把你帶回家，然後一一把你介紹，一起領紅包然後很開心的在公眾把頭靠一起。

好走

2011-12-28T02:59:00.002+08:00

我這人是個兩極怪人，可以很樂天地什麼都不去理會，但也很情緒化的什麼事都耿耿於懷，自己在一邊鑽牛角。我壓根沒想過這世上真的會發生一些你始終預料不到的事情，就像是霎時的離去，發生得很突然也很突兀。這是我的第一次我跟本不知道該給些啥反應。

我接過電話時，話筒裡的聲音還在哭泣。那聲音從話筒里傳了過來說他走了，很突然，說什麼的病情惡化一堆狗屎屁話，然後就一直有啜泣擤鼻涕聲不停的透過我耳朵灌進我腦子裡，但我哪聽得進去，我腦子裡卻只是一直重複着他走了的那句話。這噩耗來得太突然，突然得我還在跟室友嬉笑怒罵就霎時很突兀地說了一聲我朋友去世了。語畢全場靜悄悄。

如何回想，他的身影在我印象裡還是很模糊。我對他的記憶也許只停留在每每上高數的時候，我就會坐去隔壁組再在他身旁坐下，然後他就會很一臉慈祥地看著我然後繼續望想老師。還記得那兩年上高數幾乎成了我們班的夢魘，課間一有空隙時間我就會不停地叫他幫忙，然後他就會一臉深沉的說，唔，這題簡單啦過後就開始頭頭是道地解說。

水平大哥真的是托了你的福啊，雖然你的字體有點潦草呃....

隔了那麼久，那一夜，因你我們再而聚起來出席你的喪禮，你的臉蛋還是那麼的紅彤彤安詳地躺在木棺裡。

諷刺的是，隔天居然是團圓的冬至，真的是在短短的兩天裡體會到了冷暖人生。

再次我獻上我最後的弔唁，你一路好走。

2011-12-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

19 . 12 . 11 . 377

你对我所有事物都不上心了，
我觉得那是你疏忽了。

问题不断，纠纷不停，
到底该怎么办

2011-12-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

為什麼為什麼為什麼為什麼

他媽的

紅套子

2011-12-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

越來越有恐懼症。我剛躺床上還在幻想如果把一叠资料放在枕头旁，然后倒头呼呼大睡，睡醒时那资料全在脑子里了该有多好。

我看還是面對現實好了，這實驗試不過。

2011-12-14T17:46:00.002+08:00

好辛苦好痛苦。

紅瓶子

2011-12-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

給你說個故事吧。

大黃蜂你知道吧？他們的體形比蜜蜂大多了，但他們的翅膀很小，而且胸腹比例及不協調。根據科學家的研究分析，不管怎麼假設和做實驗，那大黃蜂都是不可能飛起來的，但事實上，大黃蜂卻能很平穩的飛行。

對於這一無法解釋的現象，科學家們萬般無奈，最後只能做出這樣的回答——那是因為他們想飛，所以，就飛起來了。

也有別的俗語說：飛得最高的鷹，靠的不是它的翅膀，而是它的意志。

你應該知道吧？

2011-11-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

我嘗試着接受，拋開所有，但有了裂痕的花瓶終究還是會有瑕疵，而我容不下那眼皮里的沙子似的東西。

I thought you could understand better

2011-11-22T04:49:00.002+08:00

It isn't your problems, it's mine.
And I shouted...

And that's candles of 25.

2011-11-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

we both lie down and sleep quietly. there's chatting sound coming from behind of the door.

and I turned to my right hand side thought just to have a glance on you.

you're sleeping soundly and dead to the world. that's sweet.

thus, i hold your face and wished you.

Happy Birthday to you.

那只是些瑣事

2011-11-12T03:16:00.000+08:00

最近領悟了一些小東西，
如果早上被冷醒，若想起床洗個熱水澡來去去寒，其實那樣做只能降低你自己的禦寒能力，當你踏出廁所門的那一瞬間，寒氣又會覆天蓋地地輕虐你的皮膚，只會覺得更冷。

猶如你沉溺在有伴的環境中，結果又失去了，只會感覺更悵然若失，倍加寂寞。

2011-11-11T02:51:00.004+08:00

說過的問題還是重複了又重複，結果還是一樣，
我還能做些什麼。

一直以一些小事，情緒就變的一塌糊塗，
很想再讓自己放開一些一些，太關心，自己變得更糟糕。
這醋罈子還真不是蓋。

情緒糟了，過後又跟自己鬧彆扭，
再最後，自己真的矛盾。

嗯啊，我又能做些啥。

1111光棍節，
自己一個人還真的挺寂寞。

2011-11-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

存在的問題是零零綴綴的散開

在愛失溫前失望着你不是那個堇賢

2011-11-02T03:05:00.000+08:00

還是一樣喜歡凌晨時候，蹲坐在電腦前慢慢讓自己的思緒到處飄，慢慢放空，譜著自己的夜晚。

蜜糖麵包說得對，我不是屬於早晨型的人。儘管我試著盡量早起結果還是一樣，把鬧鐘重複地關了又關然後倒頭繼續呼呼大睡。

最近真的沒什麼好寫的，無不例外的日子一直再重複循環，循環重複。
除了自己大起大落的情緒，再無別的。而且這些東西都早已經說得厭了。

有一點我不得不承認的是，我覺得自從修了繪測這一系真的把我寫作能力，社交能力大大減低。
大部分時間都花在作業上，不是在趕作業就是在睡覺。畫圖，概念，法律，帳目，計算等真的是樣樣皆入，一旦到了有自己的空餘時間，我寧可把時間花在睡眠總好比出門。

而且最近特別容易想起以前的事情，特別是在睡前。

2011-10-30T01:29:00.001+08:00

也許這是一個很苦情且用心在愛情中懷著深沉的愛意且感情相當濃密而誠懇地。

遙控器

2011-09-17T03:08:00.000+08:00

永遠不要栽培你所愛的男人或女人。

你把他或她栽培得太好，結果只有兩個他從此看不起你或他給人偷了。

『親密事件』

是經過前段感情留下的種子。

它一直發芽成長茁壯沿著心牆盤繞而上像苔蘚一樣厚厚地留下一層層的陰影

陰影的覆蓋下永遠存在着逃不出的壓迫感

它鬼魅般地侵蝕着你無聲無息

這種感覺讓我措手不及常常到最後因為自己鬧情緒搞得不歡而散

親愛的

是我們少於探討我自己的內心不知該怎麼傾訴

待我們有機會了感覺卻不在沒醞釀霎時間該怎麼掏心掏肺地把自己的世界赤裸裸袒露在你的面前

曾說的安全感歸屬感存在感等

都是我敏感的地帶容易情緒化壓抑

或許你有些許的不明白我自己也說不清

只是我覺的我倆看的觀點都不同需慢慢琢磨琢磨

也願了你們的話也許我只是個小孩

其實走過的路也不是白走

論起我們的背景而言也許你會說我只是不足一言

但總得看內容而言吧

苦頭我也吃得不少

就如上頭的那兩句話

論行頭感覺若即若離的當然是我

安全感不是只論你在外頭偷不偷人而是多方因素的總結

你那兒現在應該海風徐徐

我這兒現在只有重複過濾的低溫空氣。

你呀我呀

2011-09-13T23:56:00.001+08:00

我真不曉得為什麼我這人就是多災多難，
這個痛完那個痛，沒完沒了。

已經兩個星期了后腰疼得我呲牙咧嘴，
就連脫褲子彎一下腰都不行，
藥吃了，膏藥貼了樣樣行不通，再過一陣子應該會被人強逼性的送進院。

還有人說我再不去檢查多一遍就要跟我撒了夥，真是夭壽。

“你爱我吗？”
“已经爱到危险程度了。”
“危险到什么程度？”
“已经无法一个人过日子。” 很貼切的形容自張小嫻。

你說的。

2011-09-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

一路南下，經過山區，接而在大道上奔馳。

大道筆直延伸看不到盡頭。

車裡。

一直凝望側臉，有很好看的輪廓，顴骨分明。

坐車裡的感覺真好，很有旅行的感覺，氣氛很棒，心情很好。

偶爾耍耍痞的樣子，煞是好看。

這次的外出果然很滿足，很春心蕩漾啊...

不曉得我為什麼老是會無意的叫它大笨象，你聽了覺得很好笑，強制性地要我改回來，到頭來結果自己也被我傳染，自已也無意中提到大笨象。

一炮閃光，天空被炸得天花亂墜。
印在臉上的煙火，多麼的清晰，明亮。

西落高速公路

2011-09-02T01:56:00.002+08:00

希望你懂

其實我心裡很害怕，怕那樣的幸福很快灰飛煙滅，像片刻的曇花，西下的夕陽，燦爛卻那麼的短暫。

我知道那還遙遠，只是當我發白日夢的時候，難免會感傷一會兒究竟自己該怎麼辦。

我離不開，不奢望更多，我只希望讓現在的所有凝固。我滿足于當下，憧憬著未來。

我捨不得放開更捨不得離開。

那回眸時不經意的微笑，

看得我恍了神，

深深地烙在心裡，像灌了蜜，盤扎成了根。

誰還能像你那樣待我，

我只知道我更醉于你給的愛。

beans of red

2011-08-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

hey ya!
Finally everything back to the track again. Had my rotten holiday for past two weeks, finally step into my third year of architecture studies. I know there's long way ahead, but at least, for now this final year seems to be a milestone for my future expectation.

Started to step into urbanism in this field. Everyday talks about urban design, urban planing bla bla bla... sort of boring sometimes. At first I thought it would be a boring field, but somehow I found it could be interesting in some other way, maybe it was a bigger picture or scale that comparing what I had done previously designing a specify building, but now, it was designing a city.

Fortunate enough, chosen site was urban area that surrounding titiwangsa recreation park area. Providing great kl scene, breathetaking environment. Still waiting for the inspiration, have to ohmm more in the site.

In the other hand, was also getting sick of site visiting. Hate waking up early in the morning to go to the site, the headache traffic jam on Tun Razak Road, low aura with the working mates... Come on guys, bring me the synergy! Past me the good aura, not the bad one, together we can bring the synergy...!

Been up to the rooftop of wisma Bernama to get aerial shot of our site. Everyone was so excited, this was the first time for us to get up to a high rise building's rooftop.

Therefore a group photo is a must : )
Hope we can make it happens.

I'm just to bored of counting the traffic : )

One of the little funny incident happened on the day we're counting the traffic. while we're counting the night traffic, due to the front lights of the heavy traffic, we felt dizzy and my friend ran down from the car to vomit. LOL. I laugh non-stop at the moment, it was so silly of us :P

Hari Raya break is just around the corner. Hoping to get some time on vacation with my dear.

Found lots of so called "missing bean" on our site. It brings the meaning of missing, you know?
相思豆，愿君多采撷，此物最相思。

剝離

2011-08-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

花瓣兒剝離的頃刻間，倒敘着曾經的瞬間，

一刻一刻，即模糊又那麼的清晰，

恥笑着也許吾把它當成應該。

花瓣兒落下的頃刻間，述敘着當下的片刻，

一刻一刻，即蝕心又那麼的酸澀，

恥笑着吾說過的每一句荒語。

花瓣兒著地的頃刻間，插敘着明日的時刻，

一刻一刻，即悔恨又那麼的落寞，

恥笑著吾所做過的一切言行。

他像個剝離母親子宮的胚胎，
即無助又那麼的無奈，淚流滿面。

and the new day ahead!

2011-08-02T03:53:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps...! here this blog revive again after the owner has been disappear for months :D

After months and months of sleepless and torturing day, finally I had completed my second year of academic hooray! Till today I'm still wondering how I got through my last suffering week... You couldn't imagine how it could made your body non-stop shaking continuously for the entire day but you still have to keep drawing till the last minutes before the assessment starts. I was totally depress and so wanna to go home missing everyone and just let it go. But finally, phew...

But that's it. It's time to forget about all those architectural stuffs for temporary two weeks holiday! Although I'm super lazy to pack and tidy up all the documents...

Fortunately, my birthday was falled on the day after assessment. Thank god. Been through a small and warmful birthday celebration. Thanks for everyone.
And God blessed luckily I did not crash on anyone's car on my birthday eve celebration a.k.a my assessment day... I was totally awake for that two days and rush like a mad for my assessment, so on that night I keep falling asleep when I was driving toward the celebration place...

Of course got drunk after that celebration because of esther tan. How desperately I wish you could appear and bring me home...

And million thanks for spending on my birthday.

On that actual birthday, passed my last minute of birthday with someone else who falled in deep sleep on my bed. Haha. Although I was hoping something well-planed but I know you're that busy, so just forget about it and move forward kay? It's still a great time spending dinner with you :)

After my birthday celebration was a trip to Kuala Selangor to have a peep on fireflies organized by college clubs.

It was my second time to visit those fireflies and no doubt, it still looks like LED lightbulb which hung on trees...

Everyone was thought those fireflies were flying around but in real, they are just static on trees and from far it looks like a christmas trees.

"ili was sitting next to me when all the fireflies blink below the starry sky, and we were both saying how nice it would be if we were here with our special someone. i guess its during moment like this that you wish you have that special someone to share this moment with. hmm.. " from melissa's blog.

Just to mention here melissa... I have the same thought too! but unfortunately, there was just bear sitting next to me... ewww.

some random shots.

this species of monkey doesn't look like monkey but indeed they're still monkey.

the whole trip is just a normal enjoyable trip but we made it something different as always.

3 of the monkey ran into a so called beach which the sea was far away from where we stood without thinking. Once we stepped in, regret dah... It was a muddy beach and we got cuts and wounds from broken glass bottle and shells on the beach...

Laugh my ass out. It was totally a new experience :D

It was one of the trip during this holiday, and right now I'm enjoying doing nothing at home to get a full rest of myself. I can really feel that I'm so weak after all these fight...

I want to watch movie I want to go hunt for my new watch I want to stick with someone else I want to sleep as much as I can I want to eat and sleep non-stop everyday!!!

and the stress was knocking your door aggressively

2011-07-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

there's abit more, just a little bit more.
and then the brightness will come along, just few more steps ahead.

please give me strength to overcome this crisis. please.

加冠

2011-07-18T15:56:00.001+08:00

每一年都不能少的壽蛋麵線，

謝謝媽。

加冠了，生日快樂。

年中。

2011-07-18T02:14:00.000+08:00

依著橙黃的街燈光，一直往前踩着自己的影子。

它像一根沒有極限的橡皮筋，被拉扯，時而變長，時而變短，

情緒也隨著它的步伐時而高，時而低。

往往不敢當面向他人訴說自己身邊很親密的人，

因為情緒很容易氾濫，像拉满弦的弓，一觸即發。

整天下來情緒糟得透頂，我像扛了千斤重的擔子，

心口鬱悶得很辛苦。

看似平淡的步伐，結果日復一日的慢慢扎進心裡，

聽下幾句話，比什麼都來得強的後座力，

狠狠的烙進心裡，刺激着鼻腔，

鹼性物質一直打轉直到模糊了視線，

但一直壓抑地，直到消失為止。

千言萬語地憋在心頭。

十八的凌晨，

只能讓手腳冰冷，

耳鼻發酸直到疲憊但依舊睡意全無。

GOTOHELL

2011-07-09T16:58:00.002+08:00

everything was so fucked up.
no mood for design, no mood for works, fed up with all the things around me.

2011-06-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

很疲憊的每一天

很想你的每一刻。

滴答的敲打

2011-06-24T03:40:00.000+08:00

步下階梯時，你的包包在第一節的左邊，那化成灰都認得的包，我裝作沒看見它的存在，徑自走向臥室。

手機裡是接通了的電話，但是沉睡了的那頭應該是不想起床，過了大約一分鐘然後手機裡頭等到的是預錄小姐的播音。

掛了，再重播。

走出臥室，把身體的重力掛在大門欄杆上。電話裡還是嘟，嘟，的聲音。

我知道你坐我身後的高凳，我只想裝作看不見，煩惱太多我不想予以理會。

咱們撒伙了後為什麼還要把我搞得心靈那麼疲憊，全是你造成的思想負擔。

你的眼神有貫穿我的能力，在狼狽狀出現前，一眼不回地步上階梯，心裡卻是落荒而逃的聲音。

電話那頭接通了，睡懵懵的聲音傳了過來，大有能讓我心靈安撫的療效。

沒幾句地就被人把電話掛了，隨即也傳來樓下鬼魅般地關門聲。

結果不用一刻的時間，心情還是恢復原來那樣的糟。

2011-06-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

你如痴如醉，而我睡意全无。

“鸡”肉汉堡，“掰”掰

2011-06-04T23:34:00.003+08:00

________________________我可以把它比喻成是沧海桑田，
还是久未面世？

往往一个人静静坐着的时候想很多，
很多感概，
但是就是写不出来。

其实我很怕每次开了自己的脸书，
然后邮箱的功能上有个红色圈圈，提醒自己有新的邮件。

它已在我心里烙下了恐惧，
每次都能让我心跳一百。

邮箱里的信息，充满了你自己的情绪，
当然也少不过你的叮咛。
我觉的自己控制的很好，把醋意掩盖着，安慰完这一边再换另一边。
事后的纳闷与失落放自己在一个角落，堕落个一天两天，尔后又是另一头狮子。

一些原因自己跑来麦当劳上网，得赶快把那一摞搞得自己很鸡掰的作业掰完。
鬼打墙地遇到熟人，
感叹当年一起打篮球的毛头小子个头已长得比自己高，更别说稚气的还是别的。
当年一大班机车同学，可乐还得几个人平分的麦当劳终于肯装修装修。

我觉得自己好像糟老头。明明就那几岁人，很鸡掰很鸡掰。
其实我觉得是我自己很少接触这里了。

带着很鸡掰的心情在啃鸡肉汉堡中。

the time moves and I'm feeling so helpless

2011-06-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

I just can't speak out anything and I'm feeling bursting anytime.

I just hope that I could lean my head on somebody else and cry badly.

2011-05-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

人生该像茶叶蛋，有裂痕才能入味。

五味杂陈，千姿万种。

我只是个球

2011-05-20T03:05:00.000+08:00

当我在最需要一个依靠时，
你消失了，是无影无踪。

像梦醒了，感觉怅然若失。

当我在彷徨无助时，
倾听者离我而去，
陷入窘境，甚难堪。

伤心难过都不重要，让自己熬一熬过去，
暗箭都来吧，
我已惆怅一夜，况是区区舌毒。

淋浴时，
让眼泪在水分里蒸发，
划过脸颊不留痕迹，
踏出门槛又是一条好汉。

今夜我心难堪，
苦水一肚无处吐，
把泪忍忍熬过明晚，自己应该会好过些。

我，非常想家。

you gave me something

2011-05-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

寂寞风暴侵袭，

你只会独自自诉自己的眼前物，

而忽略了我们大家都以成为往事，

有些事一直挣扎没了结果放开也不是坏事

我们都完了就往前看吧

一直怨天尤人，何必？

in the process of squeezing out a computerized presentation board, i'm so freaking tired and sleepy.

seriously i think i will cry out when i'm in my convo graduation, tears of happiness, tears of toughness, tears of been through so much.

of course, if I only graduating with a great result. *_*

:'C

2011-05-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

i got so many things in my waiting list to blog about, my inspiration, my trips, my works and things happening around me... but i just don't have any free time for myself to sit down leisurely and start to think and blog about it....

melissa is sitting next to me and forcing me to update!!!

I'M SO FREAKING STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

when i'm back to reality

2011-05-10T07:01:00.000+08:00

i think everyone was sleeping by this time,
i hate this kind of situation, i feel so alone and lots of thing still need to be done yet i'm still so emotional.

i'm so so tired.

2011-04-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

procrastinating is always.

预感

2011-04-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

谁能够将天上月亮电源关掉

它把你我沉默照得太明了

爱了以后又不觉可靠
你和我看着霓虹
穿过了爱情的街道
有种不真实味道
我们一直忘了要搭一座挢
到对方的心底瞧一瞧
体会彼此什麽才最需要
当两颗心放在感情天秤上
想了太多又做的太少
你和我仰望星空
走到了爱情的边疆
有种不确定的预感

向前盼

2011-04-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

当爬得太高时，却忽略了自己的原貌。
我们步入得太深，谁能把自己从里边给抽出来。

我寻找的不是唾弃，而是基本的自尊，一个简单的依靠。

2011-04-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

当我，你不在

2011-04-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

有没有那么一滴泪能洗掉后悔，化成大雨落在我们回不去的街。

看似阿谀奉承的日子已走远所以日子开始走得有点坎苦。
是该为他人想想，别永远只站在自己的立场来决定自己的是与否，那只会让自己好过些可是却伤了自己在意的人。

开始恍恍惚惚浑浑噩噩。
做啥都力不从心，心不在焉。一切都不如意。当不再联络得到你分享心情的对象消失了，心情会是怎样。忽高忽地，忽明忽暗。
我应该说过，最在意的是消失然而一而再再而三地，我们都爱往别人的弱点里跳。我不想每次都以没事结束，我想在当天把怨念结清，别把不好的情绪带到接下来的日子。

对不起，原谅我的心胸没有能让宰相撑船般地广阔来容下你想花巨额在前任身上的意愿，我嫉妒心没有你想象般的小只是我不敢表露，我快达到极限，毕竟我也是只典型狮子，就算你们见面聊天我也不高兴只是我没说明。我不是不让，我只是觉得现在时机不对，你们双方只会让对方越放不下。

你忙，我也忙，忙得头晕目眩，一切乱糟糟。请别再说我只是个学生装忙个啥屁，我修的不是一般的科系，我还得抽时间工作不然我只能吃西北风过活。
我只想我们俩见面时还能开开心心，舒舒服服地过上一阵子，我觉得当你出门时，明明自己也累得眼睛酸涩，对方还得抱怨自己累得像只狗似的为什么还得出门见面，心里有什么滋味可以自己想象一下，况且出门的意愿不在我身上。

面对着自己的另一半，手里还拎着电话不断巴拉巴拉的敲着按键跟别人发短讯，我不是神人，我受不了。

对不起倘若我惹怒了你。

2011-04-18T15:45:00.001+08:00

getting deeper, getting tougher.

bring smile

2011-04-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

*walked miles and miles but forgotten how to smile*

Combine

2011-04-04T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hey folks, quite a long time ago I never update here since my new semester start again. Gone thru two tiring weeks, and the submission date is just around the corner again... sleepless night sleepless night, ishh.

Everyday I got something wish to be post up here but then when all the thing accumulate up and dragged for so long, I forgotten what else to put up here again :D

Here gonna put up my previous sem work.
If any of you have any comments on it just leave it here :)

Proposed Kiosk design for AirFix at Sunway Pyramid

Presentation Drawings

Proposed Facade design for Coca-Cola at SS15

The most satisfying presentation board I ever did : )

Proposed Restaurant design for Sapori D' Italia at Batu 09, Cheras.

Ugly shit. hahah.

Everything still the same for the new starts, every morning wake up, get myself prepared then walk to college passing through the garden to fresh up my mind is a must. Although it just a one minutes walk, but i just simply love it.

Smarties for breakfast since the chocolate biscuit dah habis, ops! hahaha.

Our lift uncle is still exist in the there. It is a simple smiley face drawn by a anonymous person on the lift wall.

We got two new lecturers for our new semester, they are pretty experienced thou. Another two walking library again. They are so ambitious, I got energetic whenever we talked about architecture and philosophy and I got goosebumps easily. Salute salute.

Architecture is about philosophy, environment and design.

Anyway, I'm moving out to new hostel on end of april. It just located 4th row behind of my current hostel, for better facilities, for better reason.

I'm so satisfy for my current situation. Busy life to keep me packed.

Stop for nonsense, Gotta go back to my work again. Have to stay up late again tonight. See ya people!

God Bless : )

go to hell

2011-03-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

super duper sad. everything is like messed up.
after a tiring day, whole day lecturing, brain packed with lots of information unable to digest in a short time. With restless body straight away went for site visit for tomorrow presentation... realizing I'm back as a architecture student again.
After all these shitty things, extremely sleepy and tired, reach hostel like 10 something and housemate inform that my hostel got no water supply... I was like cursing everyone. Pek Chek sekali!!
The most emo thing was, I walk all the way to my friend hostel to shower who knows the water stopped half way when I'm taking bathe!!

and I still haven't touch anything of the presentation stuffs yet!!
Fuck up!!!

A small little tiny of simple

2011-03-14T02:47:00.001+08:00

Just feel like writing a post tonight.
I simply like this kind of feeling and environment very much on every midnight, everything was asleep, except for silences there's nothing anymore. Sitting in front of my cool ruby red lappy, playing those recently favourite songs, free my own mind, transforming my own ideas into millions of words, let it be either english or chinese, as long as I'm happy with my words.

The nights like this easily transform yourself into emo condition tho.

Today was helping my own college working in education fair at Midvalley, although the pay is super low, but what to do...? lol.
There is always yipee and khai jie for me to crap with during this boring edu fair but sadly I won't have them anymore as they're graduating soon. I got no ones to relies on except for those kanasai marketing cheater... Kill me, both of them told me I'm already a senior, second time, what to do...? But at least something that surprised me and khai jie today! Marketing staff told us Uni of New Castle and Uni of Tasmania was offering our college architecture graduates straight away proceed to their third year of our Part I degree... yoohoo! Which means I only need to study another 3 years to get my Master Degree in Architecture! ( Melissa, did you read this? XD)
I need to cari lubang for my future! I will buy you desapark condo!!

Recently just watched this movie. Accidently choose this movie, by the way this movie not bad tho which I found out it's quite encouraging. Johnny Depp play as Rango, the main character, still the same, clumsy yet humour. When the movie starts, you just pop-ed up in my mind because of the lizard.

I kinda like one of the quote, Rango says:" Everyones need something to believe in."

So, believe in me : )

I was really feeling felicitous when finished work and some one is out there waiting for you to drive you back home. It just simple and satisfying : )

Reading your blog is always a special feeling for me ever since I met you, it's like a worship place that I can feel even closer to you, get to touch your inner feeling.

but this is my first time to read how people interpret the word of 瑕疵...

『"An example for this word,你拿出一张白纸,纯白的,纸上什么也没有,然后你在中间滴上一滴墨水,你再仔细观看,发现什么了没???原先纯白一张纸上出现了一个”黑点”, 纸原先是干干净净的,现在被弄脏了,这个”黑点”就是”瑕疵”!』

Super cute...! hahaha.
but then I think you think it wrongly. Probably you get the wrong message of the post. Anyway sorry for always posting in chinese. It just my habit.

By the way tomorrow is my cousin brother big day! He is elder than me few months but he's getting marry tomorrow! Really happy for him as in an official husband and also papa! I have to be the photographer and the brother drive for the whole day tomorrow... ishh!

Actually writing this post half way I went to the living hall and watch the All-England badminton single final match which is Lee Chong Wei vs Lin Dan. Surprisingly Dato Lee finally won this match. Damn sad seeing him always lose to his weakness player Lin Dan, but finally he did it tonight, he broke the charm. You're really now top in the world.

After the screaming and shouting of my brother, sisters and I in the middle of the night, the match ended and we automatically falled into silent. Counting 1,2,3 silently in heart, everyone of us will automatically run and rush into our individual rooms. Who ever falled into the last have to switch off all the lights and tv. This funny habit just happened to all of us since we're still kids until now.

Simple yet happy : )

瑕疵

2011-03-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

你以為魚缸裡一直生活着的是條魚，

當你湊近瞥了一眼才發現原來裡面住的是青蛙，

而不是你一直以為那嚮往幾毫米外世界的魚。

就像這一種心態，當你以為一切都隨你便，如你意時，你就隨遇而安地忽略了暗地裡正在萌芽的微小細節，

也許如文火般一潑就滅；

也許如大火般一發不可收拾。

倘若我說得出口，能不能改變已定下來的決策？

察言觀色不是口頭上的說說，而是暗地裡地讓人安心。

一切只有更糟更鬧心。

那是猶如皙白的紙沾上一滴暈開來的墨。

毛月亮

2011-03-09T02:46:00.001+08:00

每一步都踏得忒小心翼翼，

是患得患失般地腐蚀着，
是前者留下的隐忧，
是深怕再次如海市蜃楼般地凭空消失。

所以一点甜头
足以溶化高原上的冰川，
足以侵蚀断崖边的固石。

虽然甜头不常。

就像那毛月亮，无声无息，霎然变天。

Jump into the Sea!

2011-03-07T02:31:00.001+08:00

It has been dragged for so long to come out with this post here haha. Who to blame on? Laziness! I always missed out lots of things to share whenever I got tons of words want to say but those feelings just died in my brain due to my lazy mood... awww. I thought I'll be the last one to wrote about this fun trip but until I realized someone still freezing his blog since long time ago. He's just couldn't have any leisure time for himself, sakit hati I, sayang.

As I mentioned in last post about this trip. Yea, it was totally happy, relax yet a little bit painful trip for me :)

We had went to two beaches in just a day! hooray! At first we're just planned to Cherating, Kuantan only, but we have too much time doing nothing on the beach and since Teluk Cempedak is just nearby somewhere around Kuantan so end up we head to that beach which got a McDonald beside to kill our hunger!

Hey yea, here it is. Say hello to Cherating! One thing that unexpectedly, Cherating wasn't that dirty as I thought although I has been here for once. The sea was not really polluted and the seawater was quite clear as we can still see our foots under the seawater although it was still that masin larh!

Million thanks to Crason. He was the driver of the day, around of applause to him :)

We leave our place like around 7 plus something then go for their favourite yeemee for breakfast. It was like a warm and happy eating session in the early morning among us. As a Junior quite enjoy tho! Haha.

All the way was like crapping and laughing non-stop. We reach there safe and sound in quite a short time like about 3 hours plus. Of course, as I said the most important thing is who is the one you're going with.

When I'm writting this post only remind me of a thing! Which is I forgot to scream when I'm on the beach... shit...!

It was a freaking sunny day on that day until I can barely open my eyes! but Best!

I looked so thin on this shot! Credits to eeefeng Evon!

And that's all for Cherating!
The next was Teluk Cempedak. The sea here was totally polluted badly due to the commercialized of this beach. Cherating was more like out of the town with lesser peoples. One of the benefit of here is it provide restaurant along the street and public facilities as toilet and shower. As I can see, that was lots of couples or families came to here to lepak.

Rocks rocks rocks! There was lot of rocks along the beach which I got phobia with it nowadays :(
As I mentioned in the early of this post, a little bit painful is about I hurt my foot sole at this beach because of rocks awww :(
Those tiny-sharp oyster which sticked on the rocks was the troublemaker! I was told not to jump into the sea when I'm on the rock but I refused to listen which caused me this :(

It was freaking badly extremely painful after I step and sweep across the surface of the rock! Those sharp oyster was stabbed into my foot and I can see my flesh. So sorry darl, I should have just listen to you. Seeing people that you care the most worried around you was quite relieving tho. (please don't slap me).
I can still recall back the feeling when you guys splash the Carlsberg beer on it, aww.

Anyway, with this incident at least I got to know that actually my anemia is not fully recovered yet.
But seriously shower with a leg standing and avoiding the foot to get wet was extremely torturing!

Jumping all the way back and have a great dinner with you guys on the way back to K.L. Best...!
It was late night when we reach home safe and sound but it was totally fun, happy and tiring trip. I enjoyed it alot lot! Million thanks to everyone :)

You guys gonna be very important in my heart. Especially the middle one :)
Nights.

Kill my time!

2011-03-03T01:59:00.001+08:00

Last 2 weeks ago, it was my first time to visit Pulau Ketam. This was suggested by the most "dohyeh" Angie Tan, since we got nothing to do and we're planing to go somewhere else instead of rotting at home.

It wasn't as that far as I thought. We thought to take train to port Klang then take ferry to Pulau Ketam at first but then bee's friend was willing to fetch us to Klang so, we head there together with fast and furious drive, lol.

Seriously bored when sitting in the ferry. Bee was very concentrated watching tv. The owner was playing old chinese vampire movie, 殭屍道長, pretty missed those movie. Those was my childhood.

I was banned from posting this pic. But then I just curi-curi post it here because I know she is not gonna read this...I like her hair, very the got feeling :D

This place wasn't as fun as I thought. It was totally a kampung. A peaceful and innocent one. Except hot, it's still hot. I hate Malaysia lol.

Esther and Angie keep complains on it, food also not nice comparing to Kuala Selangor.

But then it's still not bad if you plan to have a walk but seriously not a sunny day... arghh...

The lovely sleeping biatch :)

After a tiring walk, we back to Klang port by ferry. Those bitches don't wanna to get home that early, at first they plan to watch movie at PJ but we end up by visiting Look Out point just to kill time.

I was freaking tired on this trip. As we getting more and more tired and pissed off by the driver, we gone into crazy mode and getting rude all the way to Look Out point. We speak out those bad words we don't used to say non-stop. They ruined the name of Pulau Ketam and change it into Chao Hai Dou, and Look Out Point is 69 point by me. Craps.

Below was the video recorded when we got nothing to do.

Codomo Lion commercial advertising video by Angie Tan.

It just the lonely city and you were somewhere else in there.

There is another post for the beaches I went last week with my dear. Stay tuned.

Nights.

Mess up.

2011-02-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

It just like a crush of sudden. Left me barely breathing.
We don't seem to get a real time to talk even. You don't know how desperately I wanted to meet you up, trying hardly to figure out any possible excuse to just meet you awhile.
I don't know what can I do for you. I felt myself so weak. Can't even promise you anything...
Seeing you rush like a mad dog every day and night. Wondering what can I do for you. Massage? I don't know... I don't even care of it before this. Console? I don't think my noob few cents could work on you.

Your complains, your fussy, everything goes into my heart. Yet, I don't think I can shout it out. The only thing I can is just to listen. Which I hate it the most.

I don't like to wait for a message like a donk. Trying to find any possible excuses to console myself. I know you are probably angry or not in mood or any other shit else, but I just don't like you don't care everything, even a short briefly message saying you're not in mood, you sleep first. good night. probably could give me at least something else to breathe.
I'm just really don't like it at all.
Maybe I'm not doing good.

Dots as rain drops. Shout it out loudly baby.

Pleasing Smile

2011-02-23T03:27:00.000+08:00

思念可以抵挡住无量惊涛，也会消融于一滴细泪。

倘若失去是苦，你还怕不怕付出；

倘若堕落是苦，你还要不要幸福；

倘若迷乱是苦，再开始还是结束；

倘若追求是苦，这是坚强还是执迷不悟...

让我们同呼吸，共存亡。

这静谧的深夜，思念灌脑，

霎然好想你。

熟睡的你，可否感觉得到...

Everything is happening...!

2011-02-16T21:53:00.011+08:00

I know it has been so long that I never update here. Before that, I got lots of things thought to ready to post up here but then it seems all my thoughts gone away after celebrating chinese new year and ya, because of I formatted my lappy too. It dragged me for a period so... maafkan :D

Throughout the entire cny was nothing special thou. But then obviously this year guests is lesser compare to past few years, most probably because of the pass away of few relatives. Sadder thing is of course the lesser angpau I can get argghh...!

Food preparation to pray for Hou Heng Dai “好兄弟”

It's been so long that I never play firecrackers during cny. Still remember that night chatting with my family during prayer for cny eve. I was speaking loudly saying how I steal baba's piggy bank's money to buy my firecrackers every years and my father was "Kuat" me 99. We laugh non-stop.

Everything will change no matter how. even the fireworks have been change. My favorite firework "blackcat" isn't the same anymore. I still can remember last time 50 cent for a pack with 5 sticks in it. Even the pop-pop also modern-fied...

Hopefully these money could help me to cover next semester expenses!

Went to quite alot of places during this cny. Of course yearly non-stop "bai nian" (meet and greet) marathon with few of my intimate friends.

Every time when I tell my parent I'm going out to bainian with friends sure kena lecture by them... They always critic nowadays youngster bainian for the sake of angpau money... but not everyone please... I really want to pay a visit to my dear's parents... hmm...

As usual went back to "uncle" place to pay a visit to them... We getting lesser and lesser going back to this place after grandparent passed away... As usual, those typical question... mana gf, study what, bla bla bla...

But then I quite missed those memories when I was a kid, I used to grew up in this kampung area with lots of negative influences, LOL.

There is a kolam ikan right behind there last time, we used to go catch cacing to fishing and catch bird bird every evening. Now, it is developing into a toll soon. Funny right, once you open the door you will see toll and those car flying over your timber house.

The corridor that I used to do my pull-ups when I was a kid.

Went to Tien Hou Gong temple with Family for a pray.

Since it was terribly free... I even went to genting just for a walk with in half day time with friends.

Cold places always the best for me because I won't sweat that much of course hahaha... I'm always the 汉堡包 a.k.a 汗宝宝 :(

Esther keep on say this door reminded her of 乐坛 which makes me laugh non-stop.

Just simply love this for no reason :)

Jack called us up again during cny for another photoshooting. Of course my brother and I went to help him for money...Weeeeee...! They gave us hoi gong lai shi (angpau for the first day of work) which had already predicted by us and before that night we gamble about how much angpau they will give to us... and luckily they are not that kiamsiap haha...

Simply shoot shoot shoot!

And I got this from an anonymous on valentine day...! Hahahaha... (gonna get murder)

I found out this thing was clip under my car's wiper after I came down from hill after hiking. Lalalala.... :P

Went to Korean food on that night after that gila gila went to I-city. The spongebob lamp was so cute...! But then it's too pricey, just give up of it:(

I'm gonna get lungs injure on that night cause keep on forcing myself not to cough out in the car due to some one sleeping like a pig...! Oink...!

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year everyone...! Have a blast one...!

I know some one is terribly exhausted recently,

I'm seriously worried for you.

Remember to take good care of yourself.

This gonna be the second month :)

2011-02-09T01:59:00.000+08:00

Oh, be my Valentine.

2011-02-06T03:50:00.003+08:00

wah!

extremely moody again :(

:)

2011-02-01T22:50:00.005+08:00

臉上一直掛着微笑從內之外發自內心的那種

哈

好久都沒那麼開心

我想用一段很爆笑的句子作為開頭

天空烏云密布電光閃閃雷聲隆隆大地“狂”起一陣狂風天空突然下起傾盆大雨

哈哈哈哈

今天居然意外的一大早就是個大晴天到處都是過年的氣氛很過癮

過後跑去爬了快半天的山吃了一大堆有的沒的

撐得累啊

下去當然還是會被抓去當個免費勞工

在這只想跟大家拜個早年

祝各位新年快樂合家平安兔年快樂

Tonight, I shall sleep with a smile on my face :)

沒離開過

2011-01-31T00:39:00.004+08:00

是在顫抖的手指飛快地滾動着滑鼠上的滑輪

一雙疲憊的眼睛死死地盯著電腦熒幕上密密麻麻的英文字母深怕漏了幾個詞就錯過了些什麼

一整頁的英文字母整整齊齊地排得滿滿但看在自己眼裡是多麼的凌亂

拼個詞兒還得重複念幾個幾遍多麼的慌多麼的燥

我看著看著腦子裡就嗡的一聲

炸開了

原來絕口不提那晚上的事就是這麼一碼事

繼經驗之談

那久久不回的短信導致整晚自己腦子短路胡思亂想

全真的就是這麼一回事案件重演

被人愛撫的髮絲我看著就覺得蹂躪

被人按摩的肩膀我看著就覺得輕犯

被人輕拂的臉龐我看著就覺得他媽的神經錯亂

那種發現偷腥冰冷刺骨自己怕得顫抖的感覺

一直都在

原來這種感覺一直都在

沒離開過

其實

我真的受不了。

One More Time, One More Chance

2011-01-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

昨晚把這部動畫看完了，一部很生活化很令人揪心的動畫。

闡述着人與人的思念，哀傷，盲目的情愫。

One More Time, One More Chance

2011-01-29T01:15:00.002+08:00

Just feeling bit down and emotional.

I don't know what happened again.

I wish I could just hug somebody else tightly and let go my tears without worries.

Ｆｕｃｋ　ｏｆｆ．

chill, days.

2011-01-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

Adam Young from owl city, previously known as sky sailing.

Listening to his song always comfort and calm me down so much.

Another great singer although he's young.

Although it fills with lot of memories.

我們都是傻子

2011-01-27T02:29:00.003+08:00

不該離開的早就滾的老遠

該離開的壓根就沒離開過

我們都如蚊蠅飛蟲渺小無力地墮網內

著迷了戀上了痴上了

過後再來個乏味階段形如嚼蜡

戀夠了乏味了厭倦了

再上演個一哭二鬧三上吊俗不可耐的戲碼

來個魚死網破才能善罷甘休

旁人都看在眼裡

有者予以白眼猶如茶色飯後上映的肥皂劇第二天阿姨嬸嬸會在菜市裡討論的劇情

有者嗤之以鼻

有者感同身受嘲笑自己的往事

有者給予沉默因為自己是當局者看在眼裡疼在心堪

滄海桑田

我還記得我學這一個詞彙大約是在六年級左右我不曉得為什麼對它的記憶很深刻

可能是個很特別的詞

多少往事是無論你彈不彈指都注定要灰飛煙滅的

執著固然有利弊但看我眼裡我只看見心酸

我們都是傻子

往往事情發生了才來自責才懂得亡羊補牢

又有個屁用？

It just pause suddenly.

2011-01-20T23:04:00.010+08:00

Just have a nice and safe trip to penang on last weekend with two pigs, standfer and vivian. At first thought to bring someone along, but couldn't make it. Sign.

I think this is the longest trip ever we have since standfer leaved alfa. Those days aren't like nowadays. Everything changed. Familiar faces, close housemates, long night pillow talks, sharing scary ghost stories in the middle of the night which caused insomia, hostel legendary ghost ahma and etc. I missed those fun so much.

It reminds me of last time we have our education roadshow to seremban with standfer. Head to education fair at Seremban hotel then seaside walk at Portdickson then seremban bak kut teh and back to K.L just in a day. Tired yet fun.

My best companion on the way to Penang. Introducing, Vivian's DuyanBear. It has only an eye.

It reminds me of old hostel again. How happy when I torture it that time haha.

Manja. lol.

Nothing much about this trip actually, it just a warm, chit-chat and eat non-stop trip. haha. I really eat a lot during this trip. I know, someone gotta say my stomach grow 1cm more :( I will exercise to pay for it kay...

When there is existence of Vivian Ho, there is always camwhore time lol.

Hello patpo, are you okay? hahaha.

this typical chinese hawker stall selling a kind of penang food called kuizap was unexpectedly nice. We have it as our dinner for TWICE.

Can you imagine how many kuizap and fried belacan chicken inside her stomach.. LOL.

She gonna kill me after she read this post hahaha.

We actually 5 da 5 zhong and found a nice dam site above of kek lok si. The view is quite amazing.

Pray for self and family, of course your family and career. Hope Buddha don't blame me on my greediness lol. Anyway I get a good "chim" for myself.

Can you spot something wrong with the column?! LOL, Sue them! Structure failure!

I know this is abit leong but the idea just pop out on my mind. :)

When we having our lunch at Bidor that time, I was actually emo for that moment when I saw there is heong peng selling over there.

It reminds me of your mom, always give me a pack of heong peng after your family came back from hometown. I feel bad to her and you too.

Anyway, million thanks to Standfer and Vivian.

A Pause for us. A Fun trip for us.

Mark the beginning of the promise.

2011-01-17T18:26:00.001+08:00

Finally reach the stage that making promises...
Although it seems we have been knowing each other for so long so long.
I did know you more and feel even closer everyday.

Thank you for giving a happy month.
Thank you for giving a place, to hide.
Thank you for giving a place, to rely on.

Everything seem like so unreal and wonderful.
Thanks for being by my sides.
Knowing you is an unexpected gift.

Using colleague's laptop blogging while working, not bad thou.
feel so nice waiting for your close one to fetch you after work :)

Miss you.

Glucose Overdose

2011-01-17T02:07:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Penang trip with dua ekor babi.

Nice trip. Million thanks to both of you.

Physically exhausted.

Another overdose sweet night :)

Diabetic 2nd version :D

2011-01-12T16:28:00.011+08:00

Summary a bit of what's happening to me on this week... This gonna be a long long post :P

I was madly in cari duit to cover up my daily expenses recently,

still got lots of stuffs in my shopping pending list which I wanted to get so badly...

gone through quite lot of things last year, I think it is the time to pamper myself abit...

money comes in then just gone very quick,

but it is not used on me, spent on lots of other places especially assignments!!!

I'm wondering how can I survive for my next long semester which I have to spend so much in printing for my design projects... awww... headache :(

wearing digi shirt(eww), working as a vendor, selling Digi K-POP live Concert ticket.

It's not I'm out-dated but I really have no idea about who are them...

while working, of course can't avoid of my "occupation ill"... Analysing building structure unconciously and I was like surprised as "I've found out new land..."

I just realized actually Digi have a research building which located opposite of the main building and it was actually a green building! As what I heard is the building actually functioning based on solar power and the building have a unique design for the facade! I was so shocked when I passed by it...

the zig-zag liked design is actually green plants on the wall and it crossed the whole building... unique kan?

other than the research building, the main building itself also very well-designed... I like the features... ishh best giler...

Another green building which I've been just yesterday was the first avenue located just next to one utama shopping centre...

I work as a photographer assisstant and have a office interior shooting in there.

The building was certified as a rated green building by Green building index... awww

The building have an individual balcony garden for each floor which provide superb view...

unique unique..!

Shea Studio.

before heading to the shooting place.

This was a luckiest and happiest week I ever had...! A good start for the new year!

I found an unexpected "gift" (omg, I feel so bad :P) which I dream to have one so badly inside the public toilet. LMAO. Hooray!

Secondly, you gave me an unexpectedly surprised.

Maybe it seems small case for you guys but then I'm so delighted. Mucks!

Just watched Pananormal Activity 2 recently. For me, I think this movie is nice enough although someone keep on criticized on it. lol.

tsk tsk...

Even how nice the movie it is, the most important thing is still about who is the companion watching with you.

Of course :)

Everything seem happening just happy enough.

Keep it up :)

uncontrolled

2011-01-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

Teach me to be the owner of my own emotion,

not to controlled by it.

Teach me to let go things that I couldn't handle,

so that I can be more satisfy with my own life now.

Everything was gone so packed just now. I can't settle down my mind, I can't settle down myself.

How extremely I wanna meet you up. Even to see you just for a sight.

I shouldn't be that selfish I told myself.

I feel bad because I'm not there for you when you need help.

I feel bad because I'm not there for you when you need to talk.

I feel bad because I've ruined the plan.

I feel extremely bad just because I couldn't meet you up since I missing you for one whole day...!

I drove to your area actually before I call you. Just couldn't figure out why am I missing you so badly.

After received your message I was extremely down.

and Sorry for what I've said.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

2011-01-04T01:54:00.002+08:00

simple voice with so meaningful lyrics.

addicted to his voice recently.

I'm just like the man who can't be moved who stuck in your heart.

You're so adorable...

another song dedicate to you,

all the best for your tomorrow :)

the nice smell shirt

2011-01-02T17:17:00.001+08:00

look...!

diabetic

2011-01-01T03:03:00.003+08:00

I just realized it was a special day today :)

1st of Jan 2011 nice number huh... 010111.

thanks for the call before you sleep, the sweetest call ever...

glucose too much, lol.

all the best to you and me.

:)

我耕田，他領功

2010-12-31T03:05:00.005+08:00

形形色色的人看多了，總以為自己有多本事，

總是扮演著給人意見，為人分析的角色，

對人侃侃而談，挑著別人的病痛，一針見血。

當事情發生在自己的身上時，反而自己陷入深淵，不能自拔。

明知道事情的解決方法，卻堅持自己的另一套，往牆角鑽，然後再來個自戀自艾。

靠。

自己明明經歷過的，還要搞得那麼落魄，真是丟人。

凡事讓自己再看開一點，也許自己也會再好過些。

胡思亂想時，大笨象經過，

幹，腦子裡全都是你。

I thought I thought

2010-12-26T02:00:00.005+08:00

Till now, I just realized how much i did fall for you.

I was spending the whole night reading Crason's blog unconsciously. Just wanted to know more about you. I wanted to catch up all the little past that you had gone through with them which I had missed. Not surprise that I really miss you so much while going through the posts about c.e.e, friendship of you three, life that you have when you at Birmingham alone. I even tears watching the video made by Crason.

Seriously I think most probably because of the over excessive humanity blogging style by Crason. (blame him pulak)

To be frank, I feel bad, sour and guilty reading your pass. Maybe I can understand a bit about how you feel, no matter how i passed something similar like you.

And yet, now I'm feeling very bad and down due to some reason. I wish I can be more generous, really, at least toward our relationship. Jealousy is the biggest enemy of ourself and I thought I could settle it well.

Oh goshh, I hate the feeling of waiting. I feel emo. Thinking whether to sms you or not when the clock hits 1. and thanks God luckily I received your sms first. A powerful panadol for me.

I dare not to ask a thing because I'm panic.

I dare not to ask a thing because I think that myself couldn't compare with him.

I scare you will say that I do not show my concern but I afraid that I'll annoy you. Surely i know you will feel bad of yourself but I feel even bad seeing you being like that.

Oh goshh, I really hate these feelings :'(

Gone too fast,

Fall too deep, maybe.

平平安安聖誕快樂

2010-12-25T18:15:00.006+08:00

不停地在心裡默念，說自己是頭豬。

昏昏睡睡，我總共睡了三次起了床兩次，結果還是一樣的累，還不如不睡。

中間有一次起來時，還下了大雨，然後吃了一碗超級愛的西米露，冷上加冰，棒！

說過雨天時，是很容易情緒化的天氣，

但是我愛。

打開窗戶，讓思念透透風。

最近有一個習慣，我總會不自覺地點一點我谷歌瀏覽器的左上角，屬於你的褐色頭像。

開著你的網誌，拂一眼，讀一遍，嘴角會不住的往上揚，

然後就這樣，也不關，只縮小頁面然後再lock user，再躺床上睡覺。

這樣我會覺得比較有你的存在感，感覺被需要，感覺被想念。

當，睡得朦朦朧朧地時候，霎時間還可以聽到屬於你網誌裡輕輕的音樂，竄進耳裡，無比窩心。

當，你醒來時，覺得會被人掛念着的感覺很美好，我很喜歡。

xxx

昨晚有個很美好的平安夜。

夜很靜，景依舊，重要的當然是身邊與你一起度過的人。

很平靜，一切很美麗，我要求的不多，那樣就夠了真的。

祝各位聖誕平安，快樂。

Baby ric, I respect & support your choice, though everyone disagreed, it's your decision and you know I'm always with you! ♥
the best Christmas present i have by Angie Tan.

I don't know since when you posted this and wondering why i never notice this post earlier.

I tear after i read this, seriously. I love you :')

夜深時我總會餓

2010-12-23T02:52:00.003+08:00

回到屬於自己的生活規律，我想我自己也不太習慣。

很多人每天都在問我為什麼總是那麼遲上床睡覺，我只能口啞啞地解釋不出來，可能是習慣，可能只是自己在逃避些什麼。

這些天過得有點情緒化，我真的不知道該怎麼去控制我自己該死的情緒氾濫。

人總是自己犯賤，閒著閒著總會自己找碴，自我折磨。

我每天都在想，每天都在想。

我每天都在比，每天都在比。

人真的可以愛瘋了，為愛瘋了。

把自己的部落格換了新的皮膚，希望負面情緒會隨之減少，拜託。

而且我不曉得為什麼總在夜深人靜的夜晚時我的肚子才會餓的呱呱叫。幹。

bout my blog's title.

2010-12-22T02:35:00.005+08:00

lame... lame.. super lame...

i know my blog's title is super lame okay...

forgive me.

but then actually very meaningful to me when last time.

the reason why i put it because 林熙 was my pseudonym name or the name i used for my essay writing last time...

so 心有林熙 actually sound like 心有靈犀 too... that's the reason okay...

ahem ahem...

i change it kay...

and thanks for my dear, finally i found the song that i searching for years and years.

actuallykan very moody for 1 whole day,

ish.. i couldn't stop myself from thinking all those craps.

anyway, happy birthday mak :)

yellow

2010-12-19T02:44:00.005+08:00

Out of my expectation today.

Once i reach home i didn't lay on my bed but i clean up almost the whole room (except my brother's things of course)

I throw almost 50% of my own stuffs... and switch my bed location ish...

seriously terrible...

I throw lots of bad memories which i do not need them anymore,

keep only those good to me....

like some one said. You should treat yourself a little bit better eric.

yes, im trying very hard.

let go the pass. learn from the pass. use it in the future.

that's what I've left now :)

and so sorry I'm late...

thanks doggy...

craps

2010-12-18T02:29:00.001+08:00

felt myself very useless.

i said i won't let myself get emo that easily anymore...

but i couldn't :)

stupid :)

2010-12-17T19:47:00.001+08:00

I spot a pig is driving gold colour car... ishh.

the night that you went and left me surprised

2010-12-17T02:23:00.004+08:00

the another turning of my life.

things goes more and more surprise as i thought.

Bye, Mr. bad.

Hi, Mr. Life.

the kick that started :)

借的幸福

2010-12-16T18:27:00.004+08:00

傾聽你的故事紅了眼眶

娓娓道來只有看的份兒

伸手看似能抓住的距離其實卻隔了幾萬公里

要是能抱著你讓你把淚流乾

應該會比較好過

昔日的故事都叫我們難堪

莫回首只看見心酸

放下怨念我們可以走得更遠

如果你看得明白

昨天　跟你借的幸福　抱歉我有不能還你的苦

看著愛在手心留的紋路　依舊是清清楚楚

昨天　跟你借的幸福　是今天以後的回顧

說忘記只是掩人耳目　我在人潮中漸漸失速

最近不知道為什麼沒了胃口吃東西

就算一天只吃一餐居然還吃不完想吐

傻了

2010-12-15T02:12:00.000+08:00

明明很在乎，明明很心痛，却要装作无所谓。

我傻了我

the end of the road

2010-12-14T22:16:00.005+08:00

sometimes i like to walk in the dark, on the street, alone.

although i'm afraid of dark.

Merry Christmas.

thanks for the present :)

after the leaf falled.

2010-12-14T00:46:00.006+08:00

finally everything settled down.

so relief. so relax. so comfortable.

gonna hibernate for few weeks now...

do not compare with others try to compare with yourself, what i had learn today.

quite a good view from studio 4 where i had my assessment today.

can spot my hostel from here too.

spot my room :)

spoke something wrongly. my bad. feeling guilty.

night world.

sleepy shit.

2010-12-09T05:23:00.004+08:00

now it's 5.32 am

was felt asleep just now when i just lied down on my bed and i feel so bad and sinful since i still got lots of assignments to rush.

actually they are not that simple as i thought.

all take time to research.

issh.

just have 4hours sleep for yesterday until the next day midnight.

sleepy like a pig lar...

it's raining heavily outside. feel so cold yet so peaceful.

rains that fall in the midnight is more charming then the day time :)

5.36am who else for you to talk huh..?

everyone is sleeping lar... idiot me.

but then there's one whole gang still awake in this time... which is my next door housemates.

i really do respect them.

how could they stay that calm since next week is our assessment week?!　

and yet keep playing computer games from day to night, night to day.

few more days to go.

gotta work more hard and hard.

一個別個另個

2010-12-08T17:47:00.003+08:00

it's another raining day...

the view from my room.

how busy the city is. how busy my life is.

how...

露台上冷風不斷迎面拂來

很冷感覺很舒服

地上濕濕的一灘的是雨水與淚水的混合物

冰涼感從腳板處傳至身體冰冷得刺骨

我沒有難過傷心的資格

罪人我來當就好了真的

讓忙碌取代了幾天

我不知道我自己到底在幹些什麼

但我沒事真的。

這又是另一個雨天。

sorry

2010-12-06T03:22:00.002+08:00

seriously im so sorry,
except guilty, what kind of feeling i could have.

我只是那麼自私，一切一切。
請別哭。

我真的很糟。

anything

2010-12-02T01:29:00.009+08:00

再撐多一下

不到兩個星期就能輕鬆了

被功課壓得喘不過氣時

我居然沉浸在youtube裡差不多兩個小時

因為sam tsui 這新星，

i admire your passion.

算是解決了一件棘手的友情問題。

朋友當成那樣，斷了也好被誤解也好，大家都各走各的。

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

had my hair cut recently.

stop laughing, it's growing quoted by eric.

快樂

2010-11-29T03:56:00.000+08:00

生日快樂 ♥
週月快樂 ♥

彩虹

2010-11-26T04:06:00.002+08:00

下雨天總是好舒服冰冷
空氣不再燥熱雖帶點粘膩感
當你蓋上被子卻溫暖無比

當天空昏暗　
當氣溫失常　
你用巨大的堅強　總能抵擋

當尖銳眼光　
當刺耳聲響　
你用彩虹的浪漫　溫柔包裝

感謝你父母，把你帶到人間。
感謝你父母，把你撫育成人。
感謝你，陪我度過難堪。

親愛的，生日快樂 ♥

輕如鴻毛重如泰山

2010-11-22T05:17:00.002+08:00

是時候放下的東西就該把它都丟了。
莫留戀，莫嘆息。

人究竟可以做得那麼灑脫麼。

我不是個無情無意之人
可卻被有意之人傷得傷痕累累。

你把我看的輕如鴻毛，就別指望自己還是我心中的泰山。

是該把這句話牢牢記住。

其實我不懂外面的世界有多複雜有多殘酷有多現實
尤其像我們這一群少數的究竟是有多麼的混亂多麼的混濁

你有的人生經驗在我身上用不到
我不是那些社會上的虎頭蛇尾牛鬼蛇神

我只是一直堅信着自己的意念活著在我自己的生活圈子
你我都是感傷的人
應該相信彼此

眼睜睜地看著自己心愛的人在外偷腥回來
還要加以原諒
把他當成是自己最親密無間的伴侶

這種事我經歷過
而且不只一次
結果還像個傻子似的去無怨無悔任挨任操
可笑之極

每當每個人對你指指點點說三道四
說你怎麼傻怎麼蠢
你還要處處為另一伴辯解
然後再向他們說你究竟有多愛他

一旦出現裂縫再也回不到原貌。
多麼滑稽的場面畢生難忘。

其實不是你說錯話，
只是我怕了
我再也受不了發現另一伴在外面搞外遇
然後自己怕得發抖身體變冷淚流滿面的那個畫面

對不起寶貝。

剛畫完兩張正視圖，
累垮了視線都模糊起來了。

剛還想叫醒心裡正在熟睡的那個傢伙，
誰知那個豬頭自己醒了。

外面誦經聲響起了
現在是凌晨5點45分

早安寶貝 ♥

唉

2010-11-20T17:57:00.003+08:00

已經過了一個星期，
每一天都一直坐著做功課，
早上比人家早起，晚上整大半夜都還沒睡。

刷牙想設計，洗臉想設計，
洗澡想設計，坐馬桶大號想設計，
吃飯想設計，玩臉書想設計，
睡覺想設計，走在路上想設計，

哇他媽的，我真的是神。
請別怪我洗澡洗太久，現在你們終於知道我在裡面幹嘛了吧？
我很喜歡站在噴頭下想東想西，冷水拍打在身上的感覺很舒服。

腦子裡全是功課，真是累。

晚上一個人走在街上看草場上的同齡少年多麼開心的在打球運動。
經過桌球店也看到一夥一夥的青少年，我自己很感嘆為什麼我沒有。

很努力的跟自己說現在辛苦點將來自己好過點。也只可以那樣自我安慰。

再多3個星期就可以好好休息了。嗯。

以前一有空閒時間就想往外跑，可是現在不一樣了，難得的假期根本懶得出去交際，只想好好呆在家裡一直睡個夠。

羨慕啊。

stranger

2010-11-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

Turn around, turn around
And fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection

I can't speak, I can't make a sound
To somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broken, abandoned, you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

I'm confident, but I can't pretend
I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me

I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And I knew just what we’d turn into
I was hoping that you could see

Take a look at me so you can see

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broken, abandoned, you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs
To make you comprehend how beautiful you are

I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breath
To make you understand how beautiful you are
Understand how beautiful you are

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broken, abandoned, you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger
You call me a stranger

♥

嗯

2010-11-13T15:46:00.004+08:00

看不過眼其實就算了
我們都控制不了人家的思維
為啥還要把自己不喜歡的東西放大再放大來討論

寶貝說了不要緊，
來來去去，來了又去，社會就是這樣。

也許是真的。就把一切再看開一下，
也許自己也會好過一些。

人生短短，何必把自己弄得那麼不開心。
珍惜眼前的就好。

珍惜你。

:)

2010-11-08T02:24:00.001+08:00

是错永不对，真永是真，
任你怎说，安守我本份，
始终相信沉默是金。

(L)

2010-10-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

i'm sick again...
it's Fever :)

and it reminds me of some unhappy memories.

but now it's different,

there was some one that care of what i don't even care... ♥

(L)

Voice me.

2010-10-31T03:33:00.003+08:00

再多的我給不了我把一切丟了
再多的我受不了我把一切咽了

瘋狂的快樂我知道自己已經是要不起
我不奢望一切讓我大喜大樂

就讓我再一次把自己賣給您
還我自己該有的快樂與幸福

Listen to your heart
Those angels' voices

Could They?

:)

2010-10-28T14:33:00.002+08:00

他們昨天問我的博是以什麼語言為主

結果我猶豫了。

以前一直很堅持不寫任何一篇英文的post，
因為你說你看不懂，
所以我嘗試了。
因為你說不曉得我的心情，
所以我嘗試了。
因為你說你在我世界的外面，
所以我嘗試了。

但，

結果你走了。

我現在還會不自覺的打起英文來，
想寫英文。
不是因為覺得你會看，而是慣性。

我曾經一度的非常討厭英語，
因為我不懂得表達，

但是它現在是我最寶貴的東西。
因為那是你留給我的唯一不變記憶。

:'(

2010-10-27T19:28:00.002+08:00

just woke up after a call from mig.

started to feel depress and lost again.

i couldn't do a thing to avoid this situation.

it come automatically every time i woke up from a dream.

i hate this kind of feeling so so much :'(

我們都嗜血

2010-10-26T19:25:00.002+08:00

當血流盡我會怎樣
當血流盡我是不是會抽蓄
當血流盡我會不會把該忘的都忘掉
當血流盡我會不會把該放下的都放下

針管插入鮮血流很慢很慢
就像時間過得很慢一樣

什麼都沒想
只是不知道為什麼自己的心情會那麼愉快

我想至少自己健康了
我想至少我該多疼疼自己
我想至少我該讓他走了
我想至少讓我解脫在這一分鐘。

When you've suffered enough
And your spirit is breaking
Your growing desperate from the fight

exhausted

2010-10-12T19:21:00.004+08:00

im dying anyway...
everything is exhausted....
sleep no use
cry no use
ignore no use

totally tiring and stressing. won't be surprise if one day you guys see me appear on the headline about a teen committing suicide :)

犯賤

2010-10-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

是我他媽的犯賤我賤過地底泥...

YCriosphinx

新春

好走

紅套子

紅瓶子

I thought you could understand better

And that's candles of 25.

那只是些瑣事

遙控器

你呀我呀

你說的。

西落高速公路

beans of red

剝離

and the new day ahead!

and the stress was knocking your door aggressively

加冠

年中。

GOTOHELL

滴答的敲打

“鸡”肉汉堡，“掰”掰

the time moves and I'm feeling so helpless

我只是个球

you gave me something

:'C

when i'm back to reality

预感

向前盼

当我，你不在

bring smile

Combine

go to hell

A small little tiny of simple

瑕疵

毛月亮

Jump into the Sea!

Kill my time!

Mess up.

Pleasing Smile

Everything is happening...!

:)

沒離開過

One More Time, One More Chance

chill, days.

我們都是傻子

It just pause suddenly.

Mark the beginning of the promise.

Glucose Overdose

Diabetic 2nd version :D

uncontrolled

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

the nice smell shirt

diabetic

:)

我耕田，他領功

I thought I thought

平平安安 聖誕快樂

Baby ric, I respect & support your choice, though everyone disagreed, it's your decision and you know I'm always with you! ♥ the best Christmas present i have by Angie Tan.

夜深時 我總會餓

bout my blog's title.

yellow

craps

stupid :)

the night that you went and left me surprised

借的幸福

the end of the road

after the leaf falled.

sleepy shit.

一個別個另個

sorry

anything

快樂

彩虹

輕如鴻毛 重如泰山

唉

stranger

嗯

:)

(L)

Voice me.

平平安安聖誕快樂

Baby ric, I respect & support your choice, though everyone disagreed, it's your decision and you know I'm always with you! ♥
the best Christmas present i have by Angie Tan.

夜深時我總會餓

輕如鴻毛重如泰山