我耕田，他領功

形形色色的人看多了，總以為自己有多本事，

總是扮演著給人意見，為人分析的角色，

對人侃侃而談，挑著別人的病痛，一針見血。

當事情發生在自己的身上時，反而自己陷入深淵，不能自拔。

明知道事情的解決方法，卻堅持自己的另一套，往牆角鑽，然後再來個自戀自艾。

靠。

自己明明經歷過的，還要搞得那麼落魄，真是丟人。

凡事讓自己再看開一點，也許自己也會再好過些。

胡思亂想時，大笨象經過，

幹，腦子裡全都是你。

I thought I thought

Till now, I just realized how much i did fall for you.

I was spending the whole night reading Crason's blog unconsciously. Just wanted to know more about you. I wanted to catch up all the little past that you had gone through with them which I had missed. Not surprise that I really miss you so much while going through the posts about c.e.e, friendship of you three, life that you have when you at Birmingham alone. I even tears watching the video made by Crason.

Seriously I think most probably because of the over excessive humanity blogging style by Crason. (blame him pulak)

To be frank, I feel bad, sour and guilty reading your pass. Maybe I can understand a bit about how you feel, no matter how i passed something similar like you.

And yet, now I'm feeling very bad and down due to some reason. I wish I can be more generous, really, at least toward our relationship. Jealousy is the biggest enemy of ourself and I thought I could settle it well.

Oh goshh, I hate the feeling of waiting. I feel emo. Thinking whether to sms you or not when the clock hits 1. and thanks God luckily I received your sms first. A powerful panadol for me.

I dare not to ask a thing because I'm panic.

I dare not to ask a thing because I think that myself couldn't compare with him.

I scare you will say that I do not show my concern but I afraid that I'll annoy you. Surely i know you will feel bad of yourself but I feel even bad seeing you being like that.

Oh goshh, I really hate these feelings :'(

Gone too fast,

Fall too deep, maybe.

平平安安 聖誕快樂

不停地在心裡默念，說自己是頭豬。

昏昏睡睡，我總共睡了三次起了床兩次，結果還是一樣的累，還不如不睡。

中間有一次起來時，還下了大雨，然後吃了一碗超級愛的西米露，冷上加冰，棒！

說過雨天時，是很容易情緒化的天氣，

但是我愛。

打開窗戶，讓思念透透風。

最近有一個習慣，我總會不自覺地點一點我谷歌瀏覽器的左上角，屬於你的褐色頭像。

開著你的網誌，拂一眼，讀一遍，嘴角會不住的往上揚，

然後就這樣，也不關，只縮小頁面然後再lock user，再躺床上睡覺。

這樣我會覺得比較有你的存在感，感覺被需要，感覺被想念。

當，睡得朦朦朧朧地時候，霎時間還可以聽到屬於你網誌裡輕輕的音樂，竄進耳裡，無比窩心。

當，你醒來時，覺得會被人掛念着的感覺很美好，我很喜歡。

xxx

昨晚有個很美好的平安夜。

夜很靜，景依舊，重要的當然是身邊與你一起度過的人。

很平靜，一切很美麗，我要求的不多，那樣就夠了真的。

:)

祝各位聖誕平安，快樂。

Baby ric, I respect & support your choice, though everyone disagreed, it's your decision and you know I'm always with you! ♥

the best Christmas present i have by Angie Tan.

I don't know since when you posted this and wondering why i never notice this post earlier.

I tear after i read this, seriously. I love you :')

夜深時 我總會餓

回到屬於自己的生活規律，我想我自己也不太習慣。

很多人每天都在問我為什麼總是那麼遲上床睡覺，我只能口啞啞地解釋不出來，可能是習慣，可能只是自己在逃避些什麼。

這些天過得有點情緒化，我真的不知道該怎麼去控制我自己該死的情緒氾濫。

人總是自己犯賤，閒著閒著總會自己找碴，自我折磨。

我每天都在想，每天都在想。

我每天都在比，每天都在比。

人真的可以愛瘋了，為愛瘋了。

把自己的部落格換了新的皮膚，希望負面情緒會隨之減少，拜託。

而且我不曉得為什麼總在夜深人靜的夜晚時 我的肚子才會餓的呱呱叫。幹。

bout my blog's title.

lame... lame.. super lame...

i know my blog's title is super lame okay...

forgive me.

but then actually very meaningful to me when last time.

the reason why i put it because 林熙 was my pseudonym name or the name i used for my essay writing last time...

so 心有林熙 actually sound like 心有靈犀 too... that's the reason okay...

ahem ahem...

i change it kay...

and thanks for my dear, finally i found the song that i searching for years and years.

actuallykan very moody for 1 whole day,

ish.. i couldn't stop myself from thinking all those craps.

anyway, happy birthday mak :)

yellow

Out of my expectation today.

Once i reach home i didn't lay on my bed but i clean up almost the whole room (except my brother's things of course)

I throw almost 50% of my own stuffs... and switch my bed location ish...

seriously terrible...

I throw lots of bad memories which i do not need them anymore,

keep only those good to me....

like some one said. You should treat yourself a little bit better eric.

yes, im trying very hard.

let go the pass. learn from the pass. use it in the future.

that's what I've left now :)

and so sorry I'm late...

thanks doggy...

craps

felt myself very useless.

i said i won't let myself get emo that easily anymore...

but i couldn't :)

stupid :)

I spot a pig is driving gold colour car... ishh.

the night that you went and left me surprised

the another turning of my life.

things goes more and more surprise as i thought.

Bye, Mr. bad.

Hi, Mr. Life.

the kick that started :)

借的幸福

傾聽你的故事 紅了眼眶

娓娓道來 只有看的份兒

伸手看似能抓住的距離 其實卻隔了幾萬公里

要是能抱著你 讓你把淚流乾

應該會比較好過

昔日 的故事 都叫我們難堪

莫回首 只看見心酸

放下怨念 我們可以走得更遠

如果你看得明白

昨天　跟你借的幸福　抱歉我有不能還你的苦 

看著愛在手心留的紋路　依舊是清清楚楚 

昨天　跟你借的幸福　是今天以後的回顧 

說忘記只是掩人耳目　我在人潮中漸漸失速

最近不知道為什麼 沒了胃口吃東西

就算一天只吃一餐 居然還吃不完想吐

傻了

明明很在乎，明明很心痛，却要装作无所谓。

我傻了我

the end of the road

sometimes i like to walk in the dark, on the street, alone.

although i'm afraid of dark.

Merry Christmas.

thanks for the present :)

after the leaf falled.

finally everything settled down.

so relief. so relax. so comfortable.

gonna hibernate for few weeks now...

do not compare with others try to compare with yourself, what i had learn today.

quite a good view from studio 4 where i had my assessment today.

can spot my hostel from here too.

spot my room :)

spoke something wrongly. my bad. feeling guilty.

night world.

sleepy shit.

now it's 5.32 am

was felt asleep just now when i just lied down on my bed and i feel so bad and sinful since i still got lots of assignments to rush.

actually they are not that simple as i thought.

all take time to research.

issh.

just have 4hours sleep for yesterday until the next day midnight.

sleepy like a pig lar...

it's raining heavily outside. feel so cold yet so peaceful.

rains that fall in the midnight is more charming then the day time :)

5.36am who else for you to talk huh..?

everyone is sleeping lar... idiot me.

but then there's one whole gang still awake in this time... which is my next door housemates.

i really do respect them.

how could they stay that calm since next week is our assessment week?!　

and yet keep playing computer games from day to night, night to day.

few more days to go.

gotta work more hard and hard.

一個別個另個

it's another raining day...

the view from my room.

how busy the city is. how busy my life is.

how...

露台上 冷風不斷迎面拂來

很冷 感覺很舒服

地上濕濕的一灘的是雨水與淚水的混合物

冰涼感從腳板處傳至身體 冰冷得刺骨

我沒有難過傷心的資格

罪人我來當就好了 真的

讓忙碌取代了幾天

我不知道我自己到底在幹些什麼

但我沒事 真的。

這又是另一個雨天。

sorry

seriously im so sorry,
except guilty, what kind of feeling i could have.

我只是那麼自私，一切一切。
請別哭。




我真的很糟。

anything

再撐多一下

不到兩個星期就能 輕鬆了

被功課壓得喘不過氣時

我居然沉浸在youtube裡差不多兩個小時

因為sam tsui 這新星，

i admire your passion.

算是解決了一件棘手的友情問題。

朋友當成那樣，斷了也好被誤解也好，大家都各走各的。

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

had my hair cut recently.

stop laughing, it's growing quoted by eric.