沒離開過

是在顫抖的手指飛快地滾動着滑鼠上的滑輪

一雙疲憊的眼睛死死地盯著電腦熒幕上密密麻麻的英文字母 深怕漏了幾個詞就錯過了些什麼

一整頁的英文字母 整整齊齊地排得滿滿 但看在自己眼裡是多麼的凌亂

拼個詞兒還得重複念幾個幾遍 多麼的慌 多麼的燥

我 看著看著 腦子裡就 嗡 的一聲

炸開了

原來絕口不提那晚上的事 就是這麼一碼事

繼經驗之談

那久久不回的短信 導致整晚自己腦子短路 胡思亂想

全真的就是這麼一回事 案件重演

被人愛撫的髮絲 我看著就覺得蹂躪

被人按摩的肩膀 我看著就覺得輕犯

被人輕拂的臉龐 我看著就覺得他媽的神經錯亂

那種發現偷腥 冰冷刺骨自己怕得顫抖的感覺

一直都在

原來這種感覺一直都在

沒離開過

其實

我真的受不了。

One More Time, One More Chance

昨晚把這部動畫看完了，一部很生活化很令人揪心的動畫。

闡述着人與人的思念，哀傷，盲目的情愫。

One More Time, One More Chance

Just feeling bit down and emotional.

I don't know what happened again.

I wish I could just hug somebody else tightly and let go my tears without worries.

Ｆｕｃｋ　ｏｆｆ．

chill, days.

Adam Young from owl city, previously known as sky sailing.

Listening to his song always comfort and calm me down so much.

Another great singer although he's young.

Although it fills with lot of memories.

我們都是傻子

不該離開的 早就滾的老遠

該離開的 壓根就沒離開過

我們都如蚊蠅飛蟲 渺小無力地墮網內

著迷了 戀上了 痴上了

過後 再來個乏味階段 形如嚼蜡

戀夠了 乏味了 厭倦了

再上演個一哭二鬧三上吊 俗不可耐的戲碼

來個魚死網破 才能善罷甘休

旁人都看在眼裡

有者 予以白眼 猶如茶色飯後 上映的肥皂劇 第二天阿姨嬸嬸會在菜市裡討論的劇情

有者 嗤之以鼻

有者 感同身受嘲笑自己的往事

有者 給予沉默 因為自己是當局者 看在眼裡 疼在心堪

滄海桑田

我還記得我學這一個詞彙大約是在六年級左右 我不曉得為什麼對它的記憶很深刻

可能是個很特別的詞

多少往事是無論你彈不彈指都注定要灰飛煙滅的

執著固然有利弊 但看我眼裡 我只看見心酸

我們都是傻子

往往事情發生了 才來自責 才懂得亡羊補牢

又有個屁用？

It just pause suddenly.

Just have a nice and safe trip to penang on last weekend with two pigs, standfer and vivian. At first thought to bring someone along, but couldn't make it. Sign.

I think this is the longest trip ever we have since standfer leaved alfa. Those days aren't like nowadays. Everything changed. Familiar faces, close housemates, long night pillow talks, sharing scary ghost stories in the middle of the night which caused insomia, hostel legendary ghost ahma and etc. I missed those fun so much.

It reminds me of last time we have our education roadshow to seremban with standfer. Head to education fair at Seremban hotel then seaside walk at Portdickson then seremban bak kut teh and back to K.L just in a day. Tired yet fun.

My best companion on the way to Penang. Introducing, Vivian's DuyanBear. It has only an eye.

It reminds me of old hostel again. How happy when I torture it that time haha.

Manja. lol.

Nothing much about this trip actually, it just a warm, chit-chat and eat non-stop trip. haha. I really eat a lot during this trip. I know, someone gotta say my stomach grow 1cm more :( I will exercise to pay for it kay...

When there is existence of Vivian Ho, there is always camwhore time lol.

Hello patpo, are you okay? hahaha.

this typical chinese hawker stall selling a kind of penang food called kuizap was unexpectedly nice. We have it as our dinner for TWICE.

Can you imagine how many kuizap and fried belacan chicken inside her stomach.. LOL.

She gonna kill me after she read this post hahaha.

We actually 5 da 5 zhong and found a nice dam site above of kek lok si. The view is quite amazing.

Pray for self and family, of course your family and career. Hope Buddha don't blame me on my greediness lol. Anyway I get a good "chim" for myself.

Can you spot something wrong with the column?! LOL, Sue them! Structure failure!

I know this is abit leong but the idea just pop out on my mind. :)

When we having our lunch at Bidor that time, I was actually emo for that moment when I saw there is heong peng selling over there.

It reminds me of your mom, always give me a pack of heong peng after your family came back from hometown. I feel bad to her and you too.

Anyway, million thanks to Standfer and Vivian.

A Pause for us. A Fun trip for us.

Mark the beginning of the promise.

Finally reach the stage that making promises...
Although it seems we have been knowing each other for so long so long.
I did know you more and feel even closer everyday.

Thank you for giving a happy month.
Thank you for giving a place, to hide.
Thank you for giving a place, to rely on.

Everything seem like so unreal and wonderful.
Thanks for being by my sides.
Knowing you is an unexpected gift.








Using colleague's laptop blogging while working, not bad thou.
feel so nice waiting for your close one to fetch you after work :)



Miss you.

Glucose Overdose

Just came back from Penang trip with dua ekor babi.

Nice trip. Million thanks to both of you.

Physically exhausted.

Another overdose sweet night :)

Diabetic 2nd version :D

Summary a bit of what's happening to me on this week... This gonna be a long long post :P

I was madly in cari duit to cover up my daily expenses recently,

still got lots of stuffs in my shopping pending list which I wanted to get so badly...

gone through quite lot of things last year, I think it is the time to pamper myself abit...

money comes in then just gone very quick,

but it is not used on me, spent on lots of other places especially assignments!!!

I'm wondering how can I survive for my next long semester which I have to spend so much in printing for my design projects... awww... headache :(

wearing digi shirt(eww), working as a vendor, selling Digi K-POP live Concert ticket.

It's not I'm out-dated but I really have no idea about who are them...

while working, of course can't avoid of my "occupation ill"... Analysing building structure unconciously and I was like surprised as "I've found out new land..."

I just realized actually Digi have a research building which located opposite of the main building and it was actually a green building! As what I heard is the building actually functioning based on solar power and the building have a unique design for the facade! I was so shocked when I passed by it...

the zig-zag liked design is actually green plants on the wall and it crossed the whole building... unique kan?

other than the research building, the main building itself also very well-designed... I like the features... ishh best giler...

Another green building which I've been just yesterday was the first avenue located just next to one utama shopping centre...

I work as a photographer assisstant and have a office interior shooting in there.

The building was certified as a rated green building by Green building index... awww

The building have an individual balcony garden for each floor which provide superb view...

unique unique..!

Shea Studio.

before heading to the shooting place.

This was a luckiest and happiest week I ever had...! A good start for the new year!

I found an unexpected "gift" (omg, I feel so bad :P) which I dream to have one so badly inside the public toilet. LMAO. Hooray!

Secondly, you gave me an unexpectedly surprised.

Maybe it seems small case for you guys but then I'm so delighted. Mucks!

Just watched Pananormal Activity 2 recently. For me, I think this movie is nice enough although someone keep on criticized on it. lol.

tsk tsk...

Even how nice the movie it is, the most important thing is still about who is the companion watching with you.

Of course :)

Everything seem happening just happy enough.

Keep it up :)

uncontrolled

Teach me to be the owner of my own emotion,

not to controlled by it.

Teach me to let go things that I couldn't handle,

so that I can be more satisfy with my own life now.

Everything was gone so packed just now. I can't settle down my mind, I can't settle down myself.

How extremely I wanna meet you up. Even to see you just for a sight.

I shouldn't be that selfish I told myself.

I feel bad because I'm not there for you when you need help.

I feel bad because I'm not there for you when you need to talk.

I feel bad because I've ruined the plan.

I feel extremely bad just because I couldn't meet you up since I missing you for one whole day...!

I drove to your area actually before I call you. Just couldn't figure out why am I missing you so badly.

After received your message I was extremely down.

and Sorry for what I've said.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

simple voice with so meaningful lyrics.

addicted to his voice recently.

I'm just like the man who can't be moved who stuck in your heart.

You're so adorable...

another song dedicate to you,

all the best for your tomorrow :)

the nice smell shirt

look...!

diabetic

I just realized it was a special day today :)

1st of Jan 2011 nice number huh... 010111.

thanks for the call before you sleep, the sweetest call ever...

glucose too much, lol.

all the best to you and me.

:)