the last ann.

As it goes, this is the 4th day from you requested it, I know you were counting day by day, probably you will be reading this post too, once I thought of changing my bloglink as what you've done, but ended up I didn't... that was too selfish, trying to disappear in just a moment try to avoid the person once you were intimately close with, that is so cruel.

I do think of it for days, thinking of begging you for forgiveness, swearing to you I will be good as the way you want it but end up, I just got the gut to text you trying to ask you to come back but thing does not happen as I wish anymore. I know you were struggling too, if we do really get back together again, what then? Promises seem to become a toy for us to kick here and there... I feel painful whenever I recall those memories and even  heartsore thinking of the situation we are facing right now. It's been more than a year and right now I can barely feel you, the loneliness as before has come back again, feeling lost, insomnia and I got no mood at all to touch my final... It has been procrastinates for a week, when I face my drawings, I feel nothing but moody, I don't know what should I do next... I feel lost.

I'm really sorry I hurt your feeling, every time I feel like I have tons of word to be pour but when I talk to you, come out nothing and leave you frustrated. I'm so hopelessly and feeling lost right now by reading your message, every words from you are killing me inside out, I forced myself not to read your blog anymore but I did it and tear unconsciously, every hours try to refresh your wall to check out any news from you...

Your decision is the greatest punishment. Everything soon to be vanish.