緣奔

其實做了一切，
也沒有用。

其實還能撐多久，
我不知道，
到頭來總歸得回到一個人的生活。

如果真的到了你要說離開的時候，
我會笑着說再見。

謝謝康陪了我一晚上，
你的出現並不會是個曇花的結局。

愛人快遠去時，
只有心疼地苦思，
我到底做錯了什麼。

我愛你 真的愛你。


提前祝自己生日快樂吧。

I wonder...

You offer me hope when I need it most.
I think you are amazing in your brilliance, and I have every confidence that you will find the most sensible of paths along our journey together.
May the poetic, musical, and love-filled adventures never end...

I will wait and force myself to be patient, even if I feel shipwrecked in the meantime.
I must never doubt that someday we will meet in the middle.


I wondered if every road was connected to every other road.
I wondered if I touched it, if maybe somewhere, you would know.

I do not wish you did any surprise for me...
Just hoping you're together with me when the clock hits the dawn.

♥I Miss you.

stupid

just drunk and cry...
how easily it was...


sorry baby...

babi bangang

yesterday i was mad and deeply depress out of sudden...
my sister spoil my precious model...
i need comfort i need console...

then i waited...

you only chatting non-stop with others and don't even ask me why or talk to me...
which continuously making me envy and low self-esteem.

i'm just like an idiot actually...
you don't even know what i want...
a kiss? a love?
i laugh at myself and ask you to enjoy your sparking night.

as i always say...
treat people like the way you like to be treated.
i need what you need too actually...

i wrote everything for you... i post everything also just for you...
and you dont feel like a thing...
at least you just put a 'like' there to show that you've read,
like you always asked me to like your post,
although i'm just lying to myself...


i'm expecting something... which i already get prepared that you won't do these for me...
but im still expecting...





overall...
i'm still in love with you deeply and deeply,
lu babi bangang... :')

...

deeply depress and sad...
yet you never concern and actually i waited...

you don't know.
i bleed and cried.


hate facebook.

My love

i have waited for this very day,
i waited like eternity...

till you came and save
me from my loneliness...

because of you, i live on...

i love you...
i do.





I just found out this on the back cover of my drawing block which have been abandoned beneath the mattress long time ago when i was packing up my stuff at hostel just now...
because i'm leaving...

It might be long long time ago yet i never realized it before this...
and i tears after i read.

i do :')

黃燈陌路

其實為了你，我什麼都可以不要，
為你做的，到目前為止還不夠嗎...？


有時只想晚上能牽著你的手，在街上走一回。

然而我曉得你根本不願意。

在那狂風暴雨的往後

終於一切都順利的結束了。

“我真的很累”，自己一直心裡PS了很多次。

在這星期裡把一切都touch up一下就有一個月的假期啦！
我他媽的我要利用這個月一次過睡個夠喔喔喔喔喔...

好久沒試過在床上翻來覆去睡不著的那種時候，
好久沒試過在床上睡不著細細地想著我的一切的那種時候，

現在的我，只要碰到床就會睡著了吼...
失眠消失在我的世界，換來的是無眠的夜晚。
乘著一個月的假期，我們一起來睡個夠吧！



一同相約出遊吧！我的朋友:D

那年，我們都很快樂的夜晚

其實再來兩天，就是重要的評估試了，
功課還是一大堆，
我真的好想好好的睡上一覺，
是沒有被鬧鐘吵起的那種。

這條路，還是一個人在走。
我要的，你還是沒給我，
我還是一個人行走。

久久

又是久違的一次更新，
其實在當下我有很多東西想說，想寫，只是過了後那股衝動就會隨之散去，
變得懶惰無比。

現在的心情其實很糟，應該沒人可以懂。
功課真的喘不過氣，
人人說晝出夜伏，我連夜晚都沒得伏。
我只想要一些些慰藉，好不好。

一切都逆來順受，我只想找回以前的自己。
只能沉默。