西落高速公路

希望你懂

其實我心裡很害怕，怕那樣的幸福很快灰飛煙滅，像片刻的曇花，西下的夕陽，燦爛卻那麼的短暫。

我知道那還遙遠，只是當我發白日夢的時候，難免會感傷一會兒究竟自己該怎麼辦。

我離不開，不奢望更多，我只希望讓現在的所有凝固。我滿足于當下，憧憬著未來。

我捨不得放開  更捨不得離開。

那回眸時不經意的微笑，

看得我恍了神，

深深地烙在心裡，像灌了蜜，盤扎成了根。

誰還能像你那樣待我，

我只知道我更醉于你給的愛。

beans of red

hey ya!
Finally everything back to the track again. Had my rotten holiday for past two weeks, finally step into my third year of architecture studies. I know there's long way ahead, but at least, for now this final year seems to be a milestone for my future expectation.

Started to step into urbanism in this field. Everyday talks about urban design, urban planing bla bla bla... sort of boring sometimes. At first I thought it would be a boring field, but somehow I found it could be interesting in some other way, maybe it was a bigger picture or scale that comparing what I had done previously designing a specify building, but now, it was designing a city.

Fortunate enough, chosen site was urban area that surrounding titiwangsa recreation park area. Providing great kl scene, breathetaking environment. Still waiting for the inspiration, have to ohmm more in the site.

In the other hand, was also getting sick of site visiting. Hate waking up early in the morning to go to the site, the headache traffic jam on Tun Razak Road, low aura with the working mates... Come on guys, bring me the synergy! Past me the good aura, not the bad one, together we can bring the synergy...!

Been up to the rooftop of wisma Bernama to get aerial shot of our site. Everyone was so excited, this was the first time for us to get up to a high rise building's rooftop.

Therefore a group photo is a must : )
Hope we can make it happens.

I'm just to bored of counting the traffic : )

One of the little funny incident happened on the day we're counting the traffic. while we're counting the night traffic, due to the front lights of the heavy traffic, we felt dizzy and my friend ran down from the car to vomit. LOL. I laugh non-stop at the moment, it was so silly of us :P

Hari Raya break is just around the corner. Hoping to get some time on vacation with my dear.

Found lots of so called "missing bean" on our site. It brings the meaning of missing, you know?
相思豆，愿君多采撷，此物最相思。

剝離

花瓣兒剝離的頃刻間，倒敘着曾經的瞬間，

一刻一刻，即模糊又那麼的清晰，

恥笑着也許吾把它當成應該。




花瓣兒落下的頃刻間，述敘着當下的片刻，

一刻一刻，即蝕心又那麼的酸澀，

恥笑着吾說過的每一句荒語。



花瓣兒著地的頃刻間，插敘着明日的時刻，

一刻一刻，即悔恨又那麼的落寞，

恥笑著吾所做過的一切言行。




他像個剝離母親子宮的胚胎，
即無助又那麼的無奈，淚流滿面。

and the new day ahead!

Hey peeps...! here this blog revive again after the owner has been disappear for months :D

After months and months of sleepless and torturing day, finally I had completed my second year of academic hooray! Till today I'm still wondering how I got through my last suffering week... You couldn't imagine how it could made your body non-stop shaking continuously for the entire day but you still have to keep drawing till the last minutes before the assessment starts. I was totally depress and so wanna to go home missing everyone and just let it go. But finally, phew...

But that's it. It's time to forget about all those architectural stuffs for temporary two weeks holiday! Although I'm super lazy to pack and tidy up all the documents...

Fortunately, my birthday was falled on the day after assessment. Thank god. Been through a small and warmful birthday celebration. Thanks for everyone.
And God blessed luckily I did not crash on anyone's car on my birthday eve celebration a.k.a my assessment day... I was totally awake for that two days and rush like a mad for my assessment, so on that night I keep falling asleep when I was driving toward the celebration place...

Of course got drunk after that celebration because of esther tan. How desperately I wish you could appear and bring me home...

And million thanks for spending on my birthday.

On that actual birthday, passed my last minute of birthday with someone else who falled in deep sleep on my bed. Haha. Although I was hoping something well-planed but I know you're that busy, so just forget about it and move forward kay? It's still a great time spending dinner with you :)

After my birthday celebration was a trip to Kuala Selangor to have a peep on fireflies organized by college clubs.

It was my second time to visit those fireflies and no doubt, it still looks like LED lightbulb which hung on trees...

Everyone was thought those fireflies were flying around but in real, they are just static on trees and from far it looks like a christmas trees.

"ili was sitting next to me when all the fireflies blink below the starry sky, and we were both saying how nice it would be if we were here with our special someone. i guess its during moment like this that you wish you have that special someone to share this moment with. hmm..  " from melissa's blog.

Just to mention here melissa... I have the same thought too! but unfortunately, there was just bear sitting next to me... ewww.

some random shots.

this species of monkey doesn't look like monkey but indeed they're still monkey.

the whole trip is just a normal enjoyable trip but we made it something different as always. 

3 of the monkey ran into a so called  beach which the sea was far away from where we stood without thinking. Once we stepped in, regret dah... It was a muddy beach and we got cuts and wounds from broken glass bottle and shells on the beach...

Laugh my ass out. It was totally a new experience :D

It was one of the trip during this holiday, and right now I'm enjoying doing nothing at home to get a full rest of myself. I can really feel that I'm so weak after all these fight...

I want to watch movie I want to go hunt for my new watch I want to stick with someone else I want to sleep as much as I can I want to eat and sleep non-stop everyday!!!

and the stress was knocking your door aggressively

there's abit more, just a little bit more.
and then the brightness will come along, just few more steps ahead.

please give me strength to overcome this crisis. please.

加冠

每一年都不能少的壽蛋麵線，

謝謝媽。

加冠了，生日快樂。

年中。

依著橙黃的街燈光，一直往前踩着自己的影子。

它像一根沒有極限的橡皮筋，被拉扯，時而變長，時而變短，

情緒也隨著它的步伐時而高，時而低。

往往不敢當面向他人訴說自己身邊很親密的人，

因為情緒很容易氾濫，像拉满弦的弓，一觸即發。

整天下來情緒糟得透頂，我像扛了千斤重的擔子，

心口鬱悶得很辛苦。

看似平淡的步伐，結果日復一日的慢慢扎進心裡，

聽下幾句話，比什麼都來得強的後座力，

狠狠的烙進心裡，刺激着鼻腔，

鹼性物質一直打轉直到模糊了視線，

但一直壓抑地，直到消失為止。

千言萬語地憋在心頭。

十八的凌晨，

只能讓手腳冰冷，

耳鼻發酸直到疲憊但依舊睡意全無。

GOTOHELL

everything was so fucked up.
no mood for design, no mood for works, fed up with all the things around me.

很疲憊的每一天

很想你的每一刻。

滴答的敲打

步下階梯時，你的包包在第一節的左邊，那化成灰都認得的包，我裝作沒看見它的存在，徑自走向臥室。

手機裡是接通了的電話，但是沉睡了的那頭應該是不想起床，過了大約一分鐘然後手機裡頭等到的是預錄小姐的播音。

掛了，再重播。

走出臥室，把身體的重力掛在大門欄杆上。電話裡還是嘟，嘟，的聲音。

我知道你坐我身後的高凳，我只想裝作看不見，煩惱太多我不想予以理會。

咱們撒伙了後為什麼還要把我搞得心靈那麼疲憊，全是你造成的思想負擔。

你的眼神有貫穿我的能力，在狼狽狀出現前，一眼不回地步上階梯，心裡卻是落荒而逃的聲音。

電話那頭接通了，睡懵懵的聲音傳了過來，大有能讓我心靈安撫的療效。

沒幾句地就被人把電話掛了，隨即也傳來樓下鬼魅般地關門聲。

結果不用一刻的時間，心情還是恢復原來那樣的糟。

你如痴如醉，而我睡意全无。

“鸡”肉汉堡，“掰”掰

________________________我可以把它比喻成是沧海桑田，
                                                             还是久未面世？



往往一个人静静坐着的时候想很多，
很多感概，
但是就是写不出来。


其实我很怕每次开了自己的脸书，
然后邮箱的功能上有个红色圈圈，提醒自己有新的邮件。

它已在我心里烙下了恐惧，
每次都能让我心跳一百。

邮箱里的信息，充满了你自己的情绪，
当然也少不过你的叮咛。
我觉的自己控制的很好，把醋意掩盖着，安慰完这一边再换另一边。
事后的纳闷与失落放自己在一个角落，堕落个一天两天，尔后又是另一头狮子。


一些原因自己跑来麦当劳上网，得赶快把那一摞搞得自己很鸡掰的作业掰完。
鬼打墙地遇到熟人，
感叹当年一起打篮球的毛头小子个头已长得比自己高，更别说稚气的还是别的。
当年一大班机车同学，可乐还得几个人平分的麦当劳终于肯装修装修。

我觉得自己好像糟老头。明明就那几岁人，很鸡掰很鸡掰。
其实我觉得是我自己很少接触这里了。

带着很鸡掰的心情在啃鸡肉汉堡中。

the time moves and I'm feeling so helpless

I just can't speak out anything and I'm feeling bursting anytime.

I just hope that I could lean my head on somebody else and cry badly.

人生该像茶叶蛋，有裂痕才能入味。

五味杂陈，千姿万种。

我只是个球

当我在最需要一个依靠时，
你消失了，是无影无踪。

像梦醒了，感觉怅然若失。

当我在彷徨无助时，
倾听者离我而去，
陷入窘境，甚难堪。


伤心难过都不重要，让自己熬一熬过去，
暗箭都来吧，
我已惆怅一夜，况是区区舌毒。

淋浴时，
让眼泪在水分里蒸发，
划过脸颊不留痕迹，
踏出门槛又是一条好汉。

今夜我心难堪，
苦水一肚无处吐，
把泪忍忍熬过明晚，自己应该会好过些。


我，非常想家。